Dec 29th, 2008

This may very well be my last post of 2008, unless something else comes along and I have a computer handy. What a hell of a year, and did it ever go by fast. Eight months of it was wasted with the wrong person, but I've forgiven him, and I've forgiven myself. RPSS released our EP, played a fucking show with MBF!!! And are playing one in the future! I've got some rock solid friendships, these people know who they are, and I'm ready for 2009 to be a fresh start... a fresh start without smoking. I've quit for officially a few weeks now, but I have slipped up. I'm ready to be done that, and it's going to happen. New Years Resolution: Keep my hopes up, and keep my head even higher.

Last night was really good. I met Kole, and Conor didn't show and it was cold so we didn't go to zoolights. Instead, the three of us played Wii, pretty competitively, and watched Casino Royale, and ate pizza, and acted like teenagers do. It was pretty cute. I definitely am such a teenage girl when I say that I have a huge crush.

I got a call from work saying that Alia didn't show up yesterday, and her mom called today and said she couldn't get ahold of her, and Mel was supposed to hang out with her Saturday but she never called and her phone is now out of service. This is worrisome. I texted Scotty and hopefully he'll know something about it. Ick.

Will you be the Jimmy to my Chazz?

Today was pretty great.
I wrote a pretty wicked song two days ago, called Dead or Alive. It's on my myspace; it's not about what you think it is ;) and I dig it. http://www.myspace.com/checkoutthebrightside.
After work today, I went over to Miss Kevann's house and we watched Blades of Glory and she cuddled on my tummy (because I am much cushionier than her boyfriend).
Then on my way home, I called Kole and had a long, crazy conversation (mainly because I have too much energy for my own good).
Tomorrow is my first day off all break (other than Christmas). I am excited for sea monkeys, zoolights, and yet another day with my dear Jasmine!
Thank god for friends, guitars, Blades of Glory and sweet people.

Trust me, I didn't forget about you

I haven't blogged in so long because I've been busy, with my thoughts, and with work, and everything. So I didn't now how to sum it up.
So here it goes;
I'm over him, he's just a boy. I'm finally feeling something for someone that isn't him, and I love it; I feel sorry for those who don't have friends as amazing as I do; I'm officially addicted to Christian Audigier (who would have thought?), Weezer should be HUGE, Rob Thomas has a beautiful voice, and Vegas is the greatest city in the world.
I have so much love right now.
Want some?

Comm Tech

I am sitting here with Jasmine Jones and... my Arizona pomegranate green tea with natural flavors.
We just played the Jesus game on Wikipedia.
The Jesus game on Wikipedia is where you search something completely random and see how many links to other pages it takes to get to Jesus!
We learned that Octopus and Jesus are only three clicks away. Awe.
Today I was on time for school because Kevann's dad saw me while I was waiting at my bus stop and I got a ride. I am the luckiest girl alive.
Evan looks like Helen Keller.

Blargh.

I had a long day today. I woke up late, waited for at least 40 minutes for my bus, finally got to school, fairly late, and hung out with my grade tens for a bit. Had drama, did absolutely nothing, but Sabryna was there, which was actually nice to see, she's visiting from Ohio. jdkashjkshdksa my damn computer just deleted half of what I've written. I put a bunch of stuff from my iTunes on my before-deleted iPod, and I like it. Being able to walk around and listen to music is somewhat better than just walking around and singing it yourself... you get less crazy looks as well. I have a huge cramp in my shoulder right now, and I am not feelin' it. I worked until 10:30 tonight... that's the fourth night in a row, and I should be working again tomorrow but I have my musical theatre audition for Urinetown and a hair cut tomorrow. I hope my audition goes well. My monologue is pretty sweet, I'm doing Babe's monologue from Crimes of the Heart (so overdone I know. Sorry.) and singing "I Wanna Hold Your Hand" for my song. I think I'm pretty good at it. But I am stupidly tired right now and I have an early morning. Today was productive, at least.

It's Such A Cold December

I love Matt Costa. A lot. My arm hurts from too much Wii, but I'm pretty certain I could kick all your asses at Wii Tennis. Maybe tomorrow though, it hurts pretty bad right now. I worked today from 10-6:30. Joel came in to visit me... that was pretty stupid of him, and he got kicked out right away. But it didn't hurt to see him... it was weird for a few seconds, but to be honest I'm getting over it pretty quick. Yeah. I'm still getting over it. But I think of how much I have going for me right now, and how many amazing friends I have to help me get through this, and I feel better. I finished memorizing and physicalizing my monologue for my Urinetown audition. I'm doing Babe's monologue from Crimes of the Heart. And I'm probably singing I Wanna Hold Your Hand for my song. I think I'll probably kick it's ass. Vegas is coming soon and I am damn excited! I wasn't until today. I think I want to take a year off for sure after I graduate this year. I want to go to Montreal for a bit, then England. I'll stay in hostels. I'm stoked for it, actually. Theres not much else to say about today. I'm pretty much in love with all the ladies I work with. And I found my iPod and now I need to re-load some music on to it.
If anyone knows any good breakup songs, let me know!

Girl With The Red Faux Hawk.

Ahh yes, you are correct. I am no longer the girl with the red faux hawk anymore. I am a busy, busy girl with lots on the go. I'm dealing with a particularily difficult break up, but I know it's for the best. Today has assured me of that. My friend John yesterday was talking about God, and his religion, and how he follow it... It really enlightened me into thinking that maybe I just have to let some stuff go. Leave it up to a higher power, if there is one. So I think that this break up will be good. Yeah, I still love him. Maybe I always will love that little boy... but Joel is definitely no longer my boyfriend, and I most certainly have to accept that. It's the time for new and exciting opportunities. It's time to reconnect with old friends (or soulmates, Ie: you). It's time to focus on my music, on my band, on my schoolwork, on my work work, on my future. I think I'm going to start a blog and talk about all of this. Maybe I'll make this my first entry. I want to maybe go to Montreal for a bit after grad... just to see what it's like. I'm going places. I know I am. I have to be. You'll always be in my heart, dear. Of course our friendship will never end.

P.S. I still haven't forgiven Katie for burning our biscuits.


From: rolo_grl@hotmail.comTo: what.are.we.going.to.do.about.the.usa@hotmail.com Subject: Hey. You. Girl with the red faux hawk. Read me =DDate: Thu, 11 Dec 2008 20:00:15 +0000
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Hello Darling. So, the bell for lunch is about to ring. I've bene in spare all block though, sort of attempting to study for a test on Romans + the renaissance coming up after lunch, but my mind turned to food and old emails. I went through your folder, reading this from as far back as 2004. Do you realise how we used to talk? It is truly almost ridiculous. ^^ I also waded my way through some deep, long letters between us that have re-established our friendship during times of trouble. I read through the e-mails you sent me when I was missing. And, it made me remember everything.We never talk anymore, but I understand why. Things are so busy, life is so busy. But I am pretty sure I have a good ten minutes a day to simply dedicate writing to you, so I am going to. It was our friendship that shaped me, and ultimately saved me. I don't know if I ever told you that. And although I am well aware of the fact that just because we don't have consistent and stable communication, that doesn't mean our friendship will ever fade, I am definitely sure that I want to know what's going on with you at any given moment for every given moment. And I might get to talk a bit about myself too =P.Ah, the PA system is calling me for a Grad committee meeting. I wonder how long I can ignore it for.I've completely stopped using MSN, for various reasons. There's been some deep problems that have just bgeun to resurface, so I've been limiting my interactions. But your stories about your day always bring a smile to my face. Remember that very old one from... April 2004, about your day off from school cleaning, SP's Shut Up #1 on the countdown, etc? I think you should do more of that. Just a suggestion, but you could compile a book of memoirs full of just those stories. It would be brilliant and effortless, not interfering with your rockstardom at all.I know we're professional, busy adults now, but I also know that in me there's some young girl that loved the black light in her room and Red Rain almost as much as Red Bull, and in you there's some odd chick with a bright red faux hawk to match her bright red guitar. And secretly, I think our happy place is in that Home Ec room, failing terribly at any attempt at sewing and making fun of Katie for burning our biscuits. For me, that was the closest thing to home. So, tell me something, tell me anything, tell me everything. Everything you say is important, everything you say is intriguing, and everything you say makes me smile. Let's hear it, you lovely dankk you. Love,Amberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr (To quote Mr. Gerein.)